I've been on my desperation diet for several days now and it's fucking hard and miserable, like I knew it would be. I do NOT feel better. I find myself dragging through the day and so exhausted at night that I go to bed around 9:00. I think it's because I've been eating about 700 calories a day in an effort to kickstart some weightloss, and also, about half of those calories are coming from protein. I hate protein. I like carbs.
I am actually enjoying eating veggies. I get "ancient" red bell peppers (they are dark red and kind of skinny and long) from Sam's Club and they are delicious. I also got sugar snap peas which I really like. I have choked down some cauliflower and broccoli, but I don't know how long I can do that. I have been eating lots of fish and beef and beans and shrimp. I haven't had a sugary sweet since I started, (oh wait a minute, Kira made some instant pudding the other day and I ate that) but I don't really miss it that much. When I haven't been eating sugar for a while, I find it makes me incredibly thirsty when I have something with a lot of refined sugar in it. Thirsty to the point of discomfort. Last night we had some tiny steaks I got from Walmart and a salad. It was good but like I said, I feel like gravity is stronger somehow because I'm so run down. I couldn't stop myself from having half a mini-bagel in the hopes that it would give me some energy. It didn't.
I'm thinking about giving up coffee and having tea instead. I like a hot drink in the morning, but I am getting a little tired of coffee. It smells good but it tastes like bad breath to me. And the caffeine boost is a little over the top.
I've been doing good with exercise. I have gone swimming, did a workout tape, rode my bike, went for a long walk. Yesterday I took the day off from exercising because I just wasn't up for it.
I think I'm losing weight, but I haven't gotten on the scale yet. I'm doing that on Friday. This drastic change in diet has sort of caused a depression relapse which I'm hoping will subside when my body gets used to the healthier me.
So, on the plus side: I think I'm losing weight. On the negative side: I feel like shit physically and emotionally. If things don't change I might have to revert back to a 90% carb diet again. Protein is bullshit.