Saturday, December 3, 2011

Push Restart

Hi!  I'm Anne, have we met?   I'm sorry, I must have blacked out there as I almost don't remember that meltdown that I had a week ago.  We reconfigured my brain, and I have rebooted.   All is well.  VERY well, indeed.

I was embarrassed by my behavior after my "Thanksgiving Carb-a-Palooza" and was apologetic for getting so cry-babyish.  But Lisa was sooo supportive and made me realize that sometime we need to have these episodes in order to get back on track.  IT IS OK TO CRY. 

It wasn't that I was feeling guilty for eating the tasty meal of bread and sugar.  I'm OK with treating oneself.  It just had a real effect on my thought process.  It IS like a drug.  That addiction monster was woken up and was telling me things that I didn't like.  I got down and felt that helpless feeling of sinking into a dark abyss, and at that point EVERYTHING in the world is wrong.   I was feeling like I had been back in August, and knew that I didn't want that again.  I was sad because I had been feeling so damn good, then just like that it was gone.  The sadness turned to worry that I had lost that good, good, good vibration for good and that it was only meant to be a short term thing.


With the help of Lisa's reassuring words, I regained my focus and got back into step with my eating program.  Keepin' it simple.  Back to 4 quarts of H2O a day.  Measuring out my portions (that is where I was starting to slide).  Protein, fruit, veggies, good fats (evoo and butter).  I am LOVING my kettle bells classes and trying to just enjoy that hour.  It's hard work, but the group of people that I am with are funny and good spirited.  I get to laugh!  I get to forget about all the other stuff in my day for that hour and just be a person in a room that makes fun of herself. 

Whatever works, do it.  I'm down 18 lbs, and 23.75 inches of my DNA is gone.  All that fffffftttttt that I've lost is the bad part of me.  I'm keeping the good stuff!

 Keep on keepin' on!!  Have a great weekend!

1 comment:

  1. Ahhhhh, I have to hit my reset button as well. Have had the VERY BEST of intentions since Thanksgiving, but still having trouble re-focusing. Ate pretzels sticks and a can of Coke for breakfast today. NOT GOOD. But my motivation, strangely, doesn't feel like the problem - I am still VERY motivated to hit my goal weight by the new year. My problem is obviously willpower.

    Tomorrow is Monday, and Monday always seems like a good day to buckle down. I plan to follow my Four Rules of Dieting the rest of today. I have to avoid the wheat - wheat TOTALLY ignites the craziest cravings, of course. Finishing baby's leftover french toast earlier didn't help. I suppose that's how the pretzels ended up in my mouth...

    Keep up the great attitude!!! We can conquer December if we support each other, yes! :o)